My Ex Would Tell Me That “No one is going to want to be with me because I have 4 kids by myself.” And He Has Been Right. No Matter How Hard I Work, Or Change My Ways. So Far He Has Been Right And It Literally Breaks My Heart Knowing This Is True. I Will Never Be Enough For Anyone Because ALL My Time & Attention Goes To My Many Kids. I Do Get Lonely But I Will Not Let Another Soul Get Close To Me, In The Ways That I Need. So, I’m Settling, I’m Settling To Understand What I Want & What Society Has Taught Us Are Different. I Want To First Apologize To My Kids, For My Poor Choices In Life. Then I Want To Apologize To Myself, For Hurting In Many Ways Than Just One. I Want To Apologize To The Men Who Think I Am Not Worth It Because Of The Amount Of Kids I Have. Mind You I DO NOT Ask Anyone Other Than Their Father For Help. I Do Not Involve Anyone Else Due To This LIFE Lesson. IM SORRY! I’ll Never Be What Anyone Wants Me To Be. Im Sorry For My Past But One Thing Ill Never Apologize For Is My Kids. I Take Care Of Them BY MYSELF, Full Time. Please, Don’t Punish Me For That.