It was a promise ring, not an engagement ring. A promise, my promise to you that I wouldn’t hurt you in any way, shape , or form. But I can see it’s to late to TRY to get you back, and I honestly look so stupid, so childish. Begging you to at least be there for me. Show me you care. But you don’t and as much as I don’t want to see it, I do. It’s okay, this is all on me. Not you, you didn’t do anything wrong, all you did was LOVE me and actually showed me you loved me. What happened yesterday , was meant to happen and it’s still happening. It’s almost done, the process is almost done. I caused a ripple , and this was my fault. So I don’t blame you for not comforting me, I wanted someone to blame, anyone.. other than me. I couldn’t be any more sad, heart broken, alone. But once this pain starts to heal you will see what you missed. I will see the pain gone from your eyes. It’s almost done. The process.. I hope it is anyways. This entire month, I have been more alone than I ever been. And it has shown me a lot. But it’s not your fault. You didn’t lose, I did. I have the pain and heartache to prove it. The battle scars to prove my pain was real, this was real, YOU were real. Don’t worry, the process of YOU healing is almost over. Yesterday was a very sad day, today I just processed it and cried. I pulled myself together , by myself. And faked a smile and kept it going. A smile that hide the pain , so well that no one asked if “I was okay”. No one checked on me, no one called me to see how I was doing. Because I deserve this. This pain , my process isn’t over but what I’m going through is ALL ON ME! Now just learning to deal with on my own is the hard part.

But I’m Allowing The Process To Start! To Forget You & To Forget What Happened Yesterday.